Death ,it's abeyance and the final abyss

04-09-2012 13:29

Death ,it's abeyance and the final abyss.

    Death, a topic we normally don't want to talk about. An ineluctable truth of our life. It's not that I am supposedly very much in love with this topic. It's just today I want to share a small incarnate story. 

    People in our lives vacillate irresistibly, and the changes around us causes a little disorder into our minds and hearts, which we humans have a remarkable ability to cope up with. I read today if the partner of a swan die, it can die out of a heartbreak, because swans keep promise with a single partner! Simply astonishing!!!!!!

   Well, this all is pretty immanent in our day to day life, changing partners, friends, colleagues. But what if something change permanently, what if a person you know is gone forever, there is going to be no more facebook updates from him/her, no phones calls from him/her. It would be like you have not talked to a person for a very long time but you know that he/she is somewhere in this world, but what if someone is gone totally.

   Who says death is unconquerable??????? One can always quote Yuvraj Singh and Lance Armstrong. But I have(not had) a friend who was not so lucky in his fight against cancer. It all stared in sept 2010. He started to feel pain in lower abdomen which was first diagnosed as bone swelling by a fu@$R@$ing doc of our city. But, it got worse and immediately he was taken to CMC vellore, where after biopsy it was diagnosed as cancer of 4 stage(a probability of 10% chances of living).  Still only a probability!!!!! You don't measure human life on the mathematical formulas of probability and percentages. That is fun@#@$ilky insane !!!!!!!!

   But, there he was on the verge of death pyre, trying to put a temporary suspension on death using chemotherapy and a plethora of drugs which saves your life only after putting you in complete death. They will deteriorate your body , your soul, your hair and whatever insanely possible can be done to a human body. Somehow, after the basic chemos he actually started beating cancer and came back home. We talked on phone every few days but never got chance to meet after the 3rd January 2011, the day of his last exam of the seven semester and also of his life........... And, hell yeah he passed with flying colors.

   A few days later he started to feel the pain again and went back to CMC where the docs were forced to give him the big 5days chemos, which were proving to be more fatal to his body but cancer is one hell S.O.B. After this we never got a chance to talk and I went Delhi for my job. 

   It was 2nd April 2011, after a long trip from Shirdi to Ellora caves with my family I was trying to connect my extremely fast(You know what I mean if you have used it) 2g internet to my laptop and suddenly a message poped in my GChat from P.D. that "vineet is no more".................. I skipped a beat and tried to tell my mother about him. I did not actually believe those words at first and I somehow tried to make some calls and finally I got the call to vishnu. He told me docs gave up on him a month back and he actually knew he is going to die. The last time Vishnu called him he was shivering with fear and pain. 

   The black hole was there. I never blame GOD for what he is doing but this was completely out of bounds. GOD always do the best!!!!!! No, he didn't at least not in this case. He was 22 when he died. He never did anything wrong in his life. Why the punishment for his parents who buried there own child. In life some questions can never be answered. Some abyss can never be illuminated!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!